Monday, March 16, 2009

47 thinking 37

Today is my birthday, and my head is thick and heavy with a sinus cold. Sucks to be sick on your birthday. That said, I am doing better than I have over the last couple of days.

I am determined, however, to go out and enjoy a fine meal tonight. I'm just praying my taste buds kick in before 6pm. Nothing has tasted quite right lately.

My husband is NOT a planner, so 'celebrating' birthdays is rather lost on him. I've had 7 years to train him otherwise, but to no avail. I can only mention Carrot Cake and Flowers in so many sentences ....

He explains his lack of planning/anticipation/excitement for celebrations on the fact that his birthdays got glossed over as a kid. He's a May baby boxed in there between Mother's Day and his Mother's birthday, so he approaches them with a blase detachment, even his own. I on the other hand want to make the most of it. Is it selfish that for one day of the year I want to celebrate "me"?

I'm not sure if its because I'm not feeling 100% this year, but today of all days - I miss my mom. She's been gone now for over two and a half years. And its not that we were close (far from it), but I long to hear her voice today of all days. Even if her conversation gets no deeper than the weather and who's died recently.

Birthdays are good, and I will celebrate me (turning 47) in some special way.


Carolyn said...

Happy Birthday! I hope you had a wonderful dinner.

Cloudy said...

Happy Birthday! Sorry i am late with wishes, but was nursing a sick baby. Speaking of, I hope you are feeling better. Why are husbands so hopeless with the planning, so infuriating. and yes, birthdays are just not the same without word from Mom. Thniking of you and sending carrot cake wishes.