I'm trying to find the right words to sum up how I'm feeling these days. The one word that comes to mind is "apathy". I have a complete lack of excitement, commitment, involvement, or enthusiasm for this holiday season.

Don't get me wrong - I'm no Scrooge. He at least had passion for his dislike. And I do like Christmas. I like was it truly represents - an endless array of Christmas Concerts, Over indulging, and a great deal insincere hoopla!

Crap! Now I'm beginning to sound cynical too! I was trying to avoid that.

No ... again I kid you - I do like what Christmas represents. The birth of the Christ Child - God's own son. I recognize fully what Christmas is supposed to be. I'm just finding it hard to get excited about it this year. Last year I had a reason to be apathetic. I was clinically depressed! That gives me some permissions.

But this year - I have no excuse. It's a week before Christmas and the Christmas cards that I have made are still sitting on my kitchen table. Waiting to be written in, enveloped and sent off. I have parcels that need to get in the mail (don't even talk to me about wrapping them), but I determined last week that they were not going to make it to there destinations on time - so why try.

I did, however, go shopping on the weekend. For the most part I'm finished, but for the most part - my hearts not into the gifts I did purchase or make.

What Is With Me?

The cartoon that I had in my last post is so absolutely true!
I want to escape! But my 'escape' button isn't working.
Calgon, take me away! (does anyone remember that commercial - other than Christine?)
Stop the world I want to get off (but not in that permanent way)
I need a vacation. Want to get awayee-ay!

So forth, so one. You get my drift.

Under no circumstances to I want to be mistaken for complaining. I'm not complaining, I'm just tired and cranky.

Bartender - give me a rum and egg nog - hold the egg nog!